Anyone else here hate life?

I'm 16 in high school and I really hate life and the reason I did not kill myself yet is because I'm afraid of going to hell. I remember yesterday another Christian on the bus said that he loves everything about life even though he got fired from his old job because of the unemployment rate and now he works in denny's and he said the thing that he is thankful for is that he still wakes up every morning and that is a blessing. Well, I hate life because everything is not as you expected it to be and I have no friends because I when ever I have friends I feel a lot worst than I did when I was a loner. My mom sent me to counseling and she said it mde it feel better but I still don't feel a change. I'm not like those smart people with happy lives.When I said life is not as you expected it to be, its true. I'm not smart like the presidents of US I'm dumb, even dumber than Bush I guess. and Damn Im failing algebra 2 in the community college during the summer even the people who are grades that are more below than me are ping it. I wish I could wake up dying dying without a warning or with a cardiac arrest like Michael Jackson did but at least he doesn't have to hear the jokes that the media and people throw at him, and at least he doesn't have to suffer with the debt. I hate life, the only thing I'm scared of is that I will not get accepted to heaven because I don't read my bible and I wished the world would be destroyed.