Why does my dad hate me?

Your anxiety attacks are because of your father. I don't know your age - you need to get away. He is a very sick man, and I wish that I could say that you are not, but you now are sick too - you possibly have post traumatic stress disorder and need some real help. Good luck to you - if you still attend school, you will need to go to your school's guidance counselor. If you no longer attend school and are an adult, you need to move before you can start to heal. You deserve better and you deserve help.